“Inseparable ♥ ”

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Babe as we both know, the past week has been really hard for us. Situations are getting harder and harder, yet the rate and time of managing these obstacles seem to be overcome much quicker. I can see us progressively making bigger changes and to be honest, throughout the course of the past 6 months, i have never been as happy as i'am now. Even though i get to see you less now and going out and being able to spend time with each other properly is very scarce, i know that going through all this, what we are going through now, the hardship, the tears, the arguments, i know that it will all be worth it in the end, because after every storm, theres always a beautiful, sun shiny day with a pretty rainbow :)

"The problems start when we refuse to let change happen and cling to old habits. But if we hold on to the past to tight, the future may never come".

I really do agree with this quote and it's pretty much a two sentence summary of everything we talked about last night. I could say that i relate more to the first sentence and you relate more to the last one. On my behalf, i guess i do have trouble accepting change because i always reminisce about the old us, the little things we used to always do and never do anymore. Things that made us different from other couples, things that made me feel special and secure. And as for you, something I've been telling you for quiet a long time. The past is the past baby, I know there are things that are hard to get over, things about me and things i have done, but believe me baby, if you can't forget it, then it will always be there at the back of your mind and we will never be able to move forward because it's a barrier that is stopping us. You always told me that a relationship is about breaking down walls and jumping over obstacles together and i believe that this is something we can both achieve together babe.

To be honest, there's not much i can do to make you forget about the past, because it's you and you have to achieve this at your own rate, but i know one thing i can do to help is being there for you and to wait for you. I'm not expecting anything to happen straight away baby, just know that even though it really does kill me inside, i'm being very patient with this, because good things take time :)

Overall, i could say that we both affect each other in every way. It's like a domino affect. Personally, in my opinion, i could say that your affect on me is the fact that you don't do the things you used to anymore, therefore it affects me and makes me think that you don't care about me as much no more and you just don't bother making me feel special no more, therefore i don't bother either. And your reason would probably be because of the way i treated you at the start, you put so much effort into me back then, that now that i reflect that image of a perfect girlfriend through your eyes, you believe that you don't have to face that bitch no more. That bitch that would get angry over silly things and breakup with you instantly. You don't have to be afraid that i would leave no more and you don't have to do the things you used to no more, because i ain't that bitch no more, i'm a loving caring girlfriend now, therefore there is no more fear of loosing me, because i would never consider leaving you ever.

I never want to see us die out, I always want us to both put in that extra effort, I want us to be 110% with each other forever and always, I don't want us to die out like other couples, where they get used to the distance, because with that kind of love, they believe that it's the distance and independence thats growing but the love and missing each other thats dying out.

Thats why i get sad over the things i do, i miss the old days when we'd always leave cheesy comments on each others fb's, when our nicknames on msn reflected on our relationship, when we'd go out and have fun and discover new places each week rather than now when we just stay in bed and literally sleep half the day and overall just the little things we used to do that would create such a big impact on us. That would bring the biggest smile to our faces and the slightest tear to our eyes. THE THINGS THAT MADE US, US AND THE THINGS THAT MADE OTHER PEOPLE LOOK AT US AND KNOW STRAIGHT UP THAT WE ARE TRULY, DEEPLY, MADLY IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER AND THAT WE'RE INSEPARABLE. There are so much more things i could say, but the list is endless baby.

Each time i would cry about this, you would think that its childish and tell me off. Well i believe not. Love is not measured through how old you are. You are never to young or too old to understand what the real meaning of true love is. Some people find it earlier, some people start later. And quiet frankly, we are still very young. We haven't even reached the half way point of our lives yet. And because of this, i'am very thankful that i found you and i have been given the chance to know and feel what true love is at such a young age. This is the age where there are transitions which affect our future. Were things such as working and driving and money start to matter. And that is why i'am thankful, because we're going through this stage together, the roots of our future together, building and building up so that our dreams come true. The day i see me walk down that aisle and the day you see you put that ring on my finger. So think about what i just said and tell me if you still believe its childish?

I don't want to have to feel as if i'm the only one in this relationship who's trying to fight for something that's not there anymore. So let's stop with the pointless arguing and fighting. Let's be happy. Lets continue loving each other more and more each and every day. Let's do the things we used to do. Let's pick each other up when one is down, no matter who's wrong or right. Let's learn to take turns listening to each other and what each person has to say, rather than talking over the top of each other. Let's be open with our opinions. Let's learn to take away all the fears of ever loosing each other, because in the end when you think about it, it's so pointless, cause we're stuck with each other forever right? :)

It takes two people, not one. So what do you say baby? We can do this right? :)

I LOVE YOU :)

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails ... and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"

Bible Verse, 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 8, 13