“Inseparable ♥ ”

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So me and david spend the day together and it was by far the happiest day of my life, since it's my 18th tommrow and i won't be able to see him :'( But that's okay, cause today we made up for lost of time and cause i'll be seeing him on thursday and saturday anyways for my birthday and 6 months! :)

Since my last blog, things have changed, we've grown better and stronger as yesterday and today proved that very well :) I'm very happy with where we are at and how we're getting back on track with everything!

I know things have changed because he tells me he loves me more and we actually do the things we used to now. He hugs me tighter and kisses me harder and when we're there laying in bed looking at eachother in silence, he just randomly tells me how much he loves me and assures me we're gonna be together forever and that his going to marry me and that i'm his wife :$ When this particular song came up yesterday, we just both sat there in silence listening to it and when it was nearly ending, i looked over at him and i could see his eyes tearing up :') ♥

He told me i was not only his girlfriend, lover, soulmate, bestfriend, future wife, but he said i was also his teacher. He said i'm a teacher to him, because throughout the course of 6 months, i've taught him so many things, things that are relevant to life; how to catch a train and bus, how to read bus and train timetables, how to use dictionary on the phone for texting and much more :) I could say the same for him. He has taught me alot aswell! SO SO SO much about cars, how to cook mi hanh huong with eggs but above all, how to get through life? his taught me independancy, taught me how to repsect myself, how to consume and save money, taught me how to respect my family, how to control my anger, taught me how to control all hunger cravings (LOL) and how to consume my time wisely :) There's so much more, i just can't think of anything right now.

Well, his such a sweetheart. He makes me do backflips. I adore everything about him. His so big and muscular and tall, he looks so tough and serious all the time, but deep down his the cutest guy you'll ever meet. He has the nicest and most caring, understanding and forgiving heart along with the cutest face. He has the most softest skin, so smooth and flawless, the most adorable eyes and nose and last but not least the most beautiful smile to die for.

I don't know where I'd be without him.

His the definition of love and together we're the definition of inseparable ♥

Babe as we both know, the past week has been really hard for us. Situations are getting harder and harder, yet the rate and time of managing these obstacles seem to be overcome much quicker. I can see us progressively making bigger changes and to be honest, throughout the course of the past 6 months, i have never been as happy as i'am now. Even though i get to see you less now and going out and being able to spend time with each other properly is very scarce, i know that going through all this, what we are going through now, the hardship, the tears, the arguments, i know that it will all be worth it in the end, because after every storm, theres always a beautiful, sun shiny day with a pretty rainbow :)

"The problems start when we refuse to let change happen and cling to old habits. But if we hold on to the past to tight, the future may never come".

I really do agree with this quote and it's pretty much a two sentence summary of everything we talked about last night. I could say that i relate more to the first sentence and you relate more to the last one. On my behalf, i guess i do have trouble accepting change because i always reminisce about the old us, the little things we used to always do and never do anymore. Things that made us different from other couples, things that made me feel special and secure. And as for you, something I've been telling you for quiet a long time. The past is the past baby, I know there are things that are hard to get over, things about me and things i have done, but believe me baby, if you can't forget it, then it will always be there at the back of your mind and we will never be able to move forward because it's a barrier that is stopping us. You always told me that a relationship is about breaking down walls and jumping over obstacles together and i believe that this is something we can both achieve together babe.

To be honest, there's not much i can do to make you forget about the past, because it's you and you have to achieve this at your own rate, but i know one thing i can do to help is being there for you and to wait for you. I'm not expecting anything to happen straight away baby, just know that even though it really does kill me inside, i'm being very patient with this, because good things take time :)

Overall, i could say that we both affect each other in every way. It's like a domino affect. Personally, in my opinion, i could say that your affect on me is the fact that you don't do the things you used to anymore, therefore it affects me and makes me think that you don't care about me as much no more and you just don't bother making me feel special no more, therefore i don't bother either. And your reason would probably be because of the way i treated you at the start, you put so much effort into me back then, that now that i reflect that image of a perfect girlfriend through your eyes, you believe that you don't have to face that bitch no more. That bitch that would get angry over silly things and breakup with you instantly. You don't have to be afraid that i would leave no more and you don't have to do the things you used to no more, because i ain't that bitch no more, i'm a loving caring girlfriend now, therefore there is no more fear of loosing me, because i would never consider leaving you ever.

I never want to see us die out, I always want us to both put in that extra effort, I want us to be 110% with each other forever and always, I don't want us to die out like other couples, where they get used to the distance, because with that kind of love, they believe that it's the distance and independence thats growing but the love and missing each other thats dying out.

Thats why i get sad over the things i do, i miss the old days when we'd always leave cheesy comments on each others fb's, when our nicknames on msn reflected on our relationship, when we'd go out and have fun and discover new places each week rather than now when we just stay in bed and literally sleep half the day and overall just the little things we used to do that would create such a big impact on us. That would bring the biggest smile to our faces and the slightest tear to our eyes. THE THINGS THAT MADE US, US AND THE THINGS THAT MADE OTHER PEOPLE LOOK AT US AND KNOW STRAIGHT UP THAT WE ARE TRULY, DEEPLY, MADLY IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER AND THAT WE'RE INSEPARABLE. There are so much more things i could say, but the list is endless baby.

Each time i would cry about this, you would think that its childish and tell me off. Well i believe not. Love is not measured through how old you are. You are never to young or too old to understand what the real meaning of true love is. Some people find it earlier, some people start later. And quiet frankly, we are still very young. We haven't even reached the half way point of our lives yet. And because of this, i'am very thankful that i found you and i have been given the chance to know and feel what true love is at such a young age. This is the age where there are transitions which affect our future. Were things such as working and driving and money start to matter. And that is why i'am thankful, because we're going through this stage together, the roots of our future together, building and building up so that our dreams come true. The day i see me walk down that aisle and the day you see you put that ring on my finger. So think about what i just said and tell me if you still believe its childish?

I don't want to have to feel as if i'm the only one in this relationship who's trying to fight for something that's not there anymore. So let's stop with the pointless arguing and fighting. Let's be happy. Lets continue loving each other more and more each and every day. Let's do the things we used to do. Let's pick each other up when one is down, no matter who's wrong or right. Let's learn to take turns listening to each other and what each person has to say, rather than talking over the top of each other. Let's be open with our opinions. Let's learn to take away all the fears of ever loosing each other, because in the end when you think about it, it's so pointless, cause we're stuck with each other forever right? :)

It takes two people, not one. So what do you say baby? We can do this right? :)

I LOVE YOU :)

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails ... and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"

Bible Verse, 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 8, 13



I never got the chance to write a 6 months blog for you hun, so here it is :) Hellooo babe, HAPPY 6 MONTHS FOR 9 DAYS AGO ♥♥ I LOVE LOVE LOVEEE YOUU MWAHH ! I must say, it's been a very long and adventurous hello of a 6 months :) I can't believe a dream, something we'd always been waiting for has happened and we're still going as strong as ever ! :)

I must admit, the past week has been preety hard for us and nothing that we faced in the pass moths together could compare to what we have been through in this last week. Though i have confidence to say that we're getting better and better and we are getting back on track, breaking down all the highers walls and jumping over harder obstacles. It's been 6 months baby, it's felt like such a long time, yet seems so short. It feels like it was only yesterday that i was meeting up with you for the first time, it feels like only yesterday, you were my bestfrined listening to my boy problems everynight, it feels like only yesterday, you were driving me to school each morning, it feels like only yesterday, that you first kissed me and told me you loved me, it feels like only yesterday, only yesterday, that we were sitting at darling harbour and asked me to be your girlfriend.

I love you so much babe, each word i type makes me teary, makes me long for your hug and kiss, makes me long to see your cute face and smile, even though i see you in a few hours.

Baby, thankyou for sticking by me through sunshine stormy rainy days. We made it baby, we did it :) Thankyou for being the one to go through my first ever 6 months with me, thankyou for everything. Remember what we promised last night okay baby ! You keep your promises and i'll keep mine.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, YOUR MY BESTFRIEND, LOVER, SOULMATE, BOYFRIEND AND FUTURE HUSBAND :)

Nicole & David, Inseperable ♥
11th Semptember 2009 .

Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke your heart. Remember the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you .

Unlike the start of everyday week, monday to friday, excluding wednesdays, being able to see my baby asoon as i woke up, today was completly different than any other day. Today i woke up at 7:20 and by 7:30 i was out of bed, instead of being woken up by david's footsteps walking into my room at the usual 8:00am. I woke up early today to cook him some breakfast, so that by the time he gets to my house, he'll have something to eat :) For his lunch box, I made him 3 packets of migoreng, packed him 3 chocate bars, yogurt and a juice box and left a little note inside telling him how much i love him and for breakfast I just made him a bacon and egg sandwhich :)

Seeing his face light up as i handed him his lunch box and his breakfast made me happy, because the look on his face was so surprised and just shocked that I was bothered to do it for him even though in my mind it was something so little. I know I can't afford to buy him this or that, but when I can, I do and even though something so little like this, just putting in that extra effort, waking up just 30 minutes early, it made me happy, knowing he was happy. And because of that, it motivates me to want to try harder and harder and to just keep on building up to make him happy through the little joys in life that i bring to him.

Til this day, I still am very happy with him and still loving him more and more each and everyday. We're been growing so much stronger ever since and i'm proud to say that theres nothing that could ever bring us down. He brings alot of happiness into my life and I'm hoping he will be there for me through whatever, whenever forever.

Sometimes just looking at him on webcam makes me really emotional and i start to tear up, just knowing how much I love him and hope i'll never loose him.

Anyway, I love you baby oh so very much :) Nothing can ever come between us. Just keep your promises and i'll promise keep mine, yes ? Done deal <3

8 Days to go :)