“Inseparable ♥ ”

July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011

I'd like to start off to say, i love david forever and ever and everrr :3

As our relationship progresses each day, i find that there are more and more reasons to change for him and to change for the better and to never turn back to the old me. Latley i've been feeling this urge and need to try 10 times harder than i already am to show david so much more extra love and care and just this great power of motivation and want to be there for him in order to be the best girlfriend possible; and not to mention, especially during this time and moment where he needs someone most to be there for him, to listen to his problems, a shoulder to lean on, during the hardship his being facing with his family and all atm. It makes me feel appreciated and acknowledged knowing he puts his time and trust in telling me how his feeling and everything thats been happening.

That being one of the motivations that has made me want to push myself harder. Laying there in my bed hugging him in my arms this morning as i felt each tear drip onto my arm, listening to his trembling words as he was having difficulties telling me the story just broke my heart. And that very moment, i thought to myself, nobody this beautiful should ever have to go through this and though i understand that its totally out of my control and it's something i can't change or make better, i feel asif the only thing i can do, is to be there for him and show him what he should have and will deserve since day 1.

I believe that David deserves everthing in the world and though i can't afford that and provide him with that happiness, it really does bring me down and makes me so sad. Though he always reassures me that I don't need money to show him happiness and that all he wants from me is to be his girlfriend, to never ever leave him and to just be there for him and love him forever because thats all he ever wanted.

Another thing that sparked me to try harder was a conversation i had today with my guy friends. We we're talking about relationships and one of the guys asked me, what happened to my knuckles, because it was all bruised up. And i replied, i got angry at my boyfriend and punched the wall. And he then continued on saying if david makes me angry, why dont i just find another guy that will make me happy? And that moment, it just hit me so hard. Because i was like NO haha and his like but why? you said he makes you angry why dont you just dump him? And at that instant, the past 5 months being with david had flashed before my eyes and i realised something that i really wished i realised ages ago. I realised that yes, david does make me angry but its the fact he never does anything wrong, and its just the fact that i have anger issues and it's my own cause of the bruises and cuts on my knuckles. He has done nothing to cause anyu of this pain and anger, and it was all me the whole time. I was the one to blame.

That topic then continued onto my other guy friend saying, man i've been with my girlfriend for 2 years and we didn't have a fight til after a year and my other friend saying yeah bro ive been with my gf for 4 months, shes an angel to me, we never argue; shes not the best looking girl, but her personality and sweetness is what makes me love her so much. And once again, that hit me too. Sitting there listening to how much pride my friends had in their girlfriends made me compare myself to them and i just thought wtf am i doing. I honestly did, i thought what the fuck have i been doing for the pasty 5 months. Im with the perfect guy and this is how i treat him, because damn right he does not deserve any bit of this at all.

And since then, I've been trying my best to give it all and give my best shot. It would really kill me to ever loose him and i'm for sure in full understanding of how much i love him and what i need to do inorder to keep in, because his a keeper <3

I love you david. You will never understand how much i do. Each day is a brand new day and each day just feels like im falling in love over and over again, except the next time, i've fallen deeper for you. Remember what you promised and I'll remember mine, because the skies the limit :)