“Inseparable ♥ ”

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ITS NEARLY 6 MONTHS dnsklncdksncjkNJKNjks :D :D :D I honestly can't wait ! It feels like such a accomplishment because it's the longest i've been with anyone, so yes, i'm totes excited ! David and I were talking about 6 months and we concluded by saying that we think 6 months is a vital month to be acknowledged because it's the mark where couples say, yep we accomplished 6 months, and if we can do it once, we can do it again, and then 1 year passes and then after a year, two years, three years ... then a decade and soo on til forever and ever hehehe ♥

We said how its also the month were people see a couples relationship as serious. Whereas the 1-2-3-4 and 5ish months can be catergorised as the breakable periods ! Not that me and david ever were but yeah :D

I have a lot of things installed for 6 months present atm for you hun ! I'm not really sure though, but hopefully things will go well :) We've been going so well lately and i've been so happy with you hun ! keep up the good work and im sure to keep up with mine !

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOUUUUU FOREVER AND EVER CAUSE WE'RE INSEPERABLE
111109(: ♥♥♥

I'd like to start off to say, i love david forever and ever and everrr :3

As our relationship progresses each day, i find that there are more and more reasons to change for him and to change for the better and to never turn back to the old me. Latley i've been feeling this urge and need to try 10 times harder than i already am to show david so much more extra love and care and just this great power of motivation and want to be there for him in order to be the best girlfriend possible; and not to mention, especially during this time and moment where he needs someone most to be there for him, to listen to his problems, a shoulder to lean on, during the hardship his being facing with his family and all atm. It makes me feel appreciated and acknowledged knowing he puts his time and trust in telling me how his feeling and everything thats been happening.

That being one of the motivations that has made me want to push myself harder. Laying there in my bed hugging him in my arms this morning as i felt each tear drip onto my arm, listening to his trembling words as he was having difficulties telling me the story just broke my heart. And that very moment, i thought to myself, nobody this beautiful should ever have to go through this and though i understand that its totally out of my control and it's something i can't change or make better, i feel asif the only thing i can do, is to be there for him and show him what he should have and will deserve since day 1.

I believe that David deserves everthing in the world and though i can't afford that and provide him with that happiness, it really does bring me down and makes me so sad. Though he always reassures me that I don't need money to show him happiness and that all he wants from me is to be his girlfriend, to never ever leave him and to just be there for him and love him forever because thats all he ever wanted.

Another thing that sparked me to try harder was a conversation i had today with my guy friends. We we're talking about relationships and one of the guys asked me, what happened to my knuckles, because it was all bruised up. And i replied, i got angry at my boyfriend and punched the wall. And he then continued on saying if david makes me angry, why dont i just find another guy that will make me happy? And that moment, it just hit me so hard. Because i was like NO haha and his like but why? you said he makes you angry why dont you just dump him? And at that instant, the past 5 months being with david had flashed before my eyes and i realised something that i really wished i realised ages ago. I realised that yes, david does make me angry but its the fact he never does anything wrong, and its just the fact that i have anger issues and it's my own cause of the bruises and cuts on my knuckles. He has done nothing to cause anyu of this pain and anger, and it was all me the whole time. I was the one to blame.

That topic then continued onto my other guy friend saying, man i've been with my girlfriend for 2 years and we didn't have a fight til after a year and my other friend saying yeah bro ive been with my gf for 4 months, shes an angel to me, we never argue; shes not the best looking girl, but her personality and sweetness is what makes me love her so much. And once again, that hit me too. Sitting there listening to how much pride my friends had in their girlfriends made me compare myself to them and i just thought wtf am i doing. I honestly did, i thought what the fuck have i been doing for the pasty 5 months. Im with the perfect guy and this is how i treat him, because damn right he does not deserve any bit of this at all.

And since then, I've been trying my best to give it all and give my best shot. It would really kill me to ever loose him and i'm for sure in full understanding of how much i love him and what i need to do inorder to keep in, because his a keeper <3

I love you david. You will never understand how much i do. Each day is a brand new day and each day just feels like im falling in love over and over again, except the next time, i've fallen deeper for you. Remember what you promised and I'll remember mine, because the skies the limit :)

Dear David,

So i woke up this morning to my sister calling me asking if i wanted to go shopping but i turned her down. I was so tired and my eyes were so puffy from crying all night and we just had another fight? And your not understanding where I'm coming from, so im gonna blog my feelings so you can read it and through this you can't butt in and argue back with me and you can just read and try and make an attempt to understand me and where im coming from.

I honestly thought I could have made it through this obstacle, but obviously atm i'm having such difficulties doing so because there's no-one or nothing there to motivate me to want to change and break down this wall. Last night was by far the worst fight we've ever had and it's totally changed my views or ever wanting to be with you or ever even wanting to have a relationship with anyone, even though deep down i know this feeling is probably just one of those the moment feeling and it'll all pass and things will be fine again soon.

Recently each time we fight I notice I face a new you each time. A more smartass, dickhead, asshole, non-caring, swearing boyfriend. And each time we fight, your attitudes when we fight get more serious to the extent i convince myself you don't love me no more.

I don't really know how to explain this through writing but i'll try my best to explain. I realised that to me, each time when we fight i make it like asif it's the end of the world and it's by far the "worst fights" we've ever had. And I realised because of that, as im progressing through this "changing" stage I will not be perfect. I will be alright for a few days or so and eventually I will break and fall and through that, there will be fights and fights will be really big each time after I pick myself up from the last fight because after each fight, I will have a better understanding and I will try harder, hence a longer period of days being perfect, hence more anger from each day that hasn't been let out, hence a great amount of anger build up inside, HENCE the fact why each time we fight, one after another, they are so big and get worser and worser each time (and this is the part where you correct me and tell me worser isnt a word lol)

And not only the fact that it gets worser because of me, but you being a hectic jerk to me each time i make a mistake doesn't really help either. Obviously your not perfect, but your only not perfect when im not perfect. So therefore do you realise that maybe just calming me down first works. Cause if im mad, then your mad and then i get even more mad cause your mad then you get angry at me for even being more mad and then the process just goes round and round and round and we dont stop arguing til like i get sleepy and im just not bothered to fight anymore. But then again, like me, I understand that your changing too. And i'm trying to understand that, but sometimes someones just gotta give in and help us, and for the past weeks I've been putting my trust in you to help me with that, cause i belived that only you could do that, but you havn't. That's why it breaks my heart so much each time you go agaisnt me and scream at me telling me to "shut the fuck up" and tell me off, cause its just not you, this is not what i came into a relationship for.

I don't know how things will turn out for us. No doubt, I love you. Your my everything, your everything ive ever asked for and looked for in a boyfriend. And im telling you this in advance ... sometimes my insecurities will take the better of me and i know that if i continue on with my "changing" to be a better girlfriend, at one stage or another, i will stuff up again because nobodies perfect and such high expectations should not be placed upon any person. You tell me that your proud of me for changing and that you didn't tell me to change and that i changed for myself and for the better voluntarily. If you say that, then why not act like you acknowlegde it during hard times. You should be gratful for having to face a fight once a week compared to before when i wasn't changing to fights everyday.

But thats not the point. The point is i need you to understand where im comming from and that it's honestly not easy to go through what i have to go through each day with all my anger problems. It's not like i enjoy punching walls and living a life where i think money grows on tree's breaking everything that gets in my way.

Honestly, I don't think you ever will understand. But when you do, please let me know. I love you, but sometimes I'd rather be alone than have to go through all this again. I'm not weak because im giving up but its because I know i will stuff up again and because of that I know that when I do, I have to face that side of you again, which I never want to ever.

That's all i have to say.

Love, Nicole.

So it's our 5 months today hehe :$ We both actually didn't know it was 5 months til when we were laying in bed getting ready to sleep on the phone to eachother and i randomly checked my phone calender and it was like HUH? 11? ISKAJNSKAJNSKnakjdnjsnd WTFFF BABE I THINK ITS OUR 5 MONTHS? haha ♥

I'm still really overwhelmed from the fact thats it's 5 months, mainly cause we both forgot about it and how fast it had crept up onto us hehe The past 5 months has just been such a roller coaster ride and time has really flown by so fast! We have come from such a far way to get to the point we are at now and there's no doubt in my mind that I could ever stop loving him and that we aren't gonna spend the rest of our lives together. When I'm with him, just a glimpse of his beautiful smile lights up my soul and just holding him in my arms, I see my future flash before my eyes. I see my life with him, I see a loving father to my kids, but most of all i see my husband, the love of my life.

He is by far the most loving, forgiving and understanding boyfriend. We may fuss, we may fight, but by the end of the night we both get stronger and stronger because thats what love is. Love is breaking down walls together and never letting anything and anyone get in between us. Love is being able to give in no matter if your wrong or right. Love is me and David and I really am thankful to have found him at such a young age ...

The past month has been a big highlight to our relationship. He met my parents and my two little brothers and recently met my sister and brother in law. As the weeks go by, seeing David each week when he comes over to pick me up or to see me, having a little conversation here and there with my parents, David has grown very fond towards my family. So close that my mum can't stop talking about him and that she mentions me and him getting married and kids and asking if David wants to come to our future planned family holidays (Queensland at the end of this year and Vietnam next year). And all this is a big thumbs up to me :) Since his the first boyfriend I've ever introduced and brought home to meet my whole family !

I really do love David so so so god damn much. He brings a side of me that I really have never seen before. He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, he really does rock my world. I can't wait for the next month and the next and when months turn into years and years turn into centuries and so on :) hehe

I think his the sweetest thing alive. He always makes me happy and he never lets anything get in between us. Making me happy is his number one priority.

Anyways, I know your reading hun and I just wanna say once again, Happy 5 months ! I love you so much babe, it's really so hard to explain through words how extraordinary this feeling you give me is. I've never felt this way with anybody else before and I know i never will, because it'll always be from you and vice versa with you :) I promise to keep trying and working at us to make it better everyday of my life ♥ I can't wait for what 6 months has installed for us, I love you :)

111109, inseparable ♥♥♥

The past 5 days have simply been great for David and I, since our last argument last week. I really am proud of myself for pulling everything together and finally after 2 years of being broken hearted by that one guy and because of that resulting in being a stubborn bitch and not opening up to anyone, I'm so glad that I've finally found someone who has given me the motivation to change and the want to change in every single way. Not only for the benefit of him, but for the benefit of myself, my health and lifestyle (not being such a agro bitch and angry rage at this that this that all the time), but most importantly, for us two. I see a domino affect happening, through my change and as a result, I see a much more brighter better and bigger future ahead. The changed me is minus the nagging, minus the clingyness, minus the bitchyness, minus the insecurities, minus the expectations, double the patience, whereby TEN GAZILLION TIMES THE HAPPINESS :D I seem so much happier and cheerful and he does too and knowing that his happy, makes me happy.



I know there are people out there who know much about my past or think that they know this or that about me. I know that i'm not the perfect girlfriend, never said i was, and from the way i was at the beginning when i first dated my boyfriend i know i didn't treat him the way he should have been treated and yes sometimes it's hard to believe that he really is mine and how great he is of a boyfriend to me, that most times i still don't think i deserve him because he can do so much better. And believe me, I tell him he deserves better all the time !

So all i have to say is, you can keep calling me names, tagging my board, keep hating, but it really honestly doesn't bother me at all :) Because everyone is entitled to their own opinions right? I'm mature enough to accept that.

And since I also am entitled to my own opinions, keep obsessing over me you biatttchessss :) WOAH JOKESSSS, wouldn't want you to go keyboard warrior on my tagboard again would i ? LULZ

Soooooo whats the goo :) Well I'm on a 2 weeks holiday atm and it's been preety boring D; I have so many assignments and i just don't know where to start :'( And because of that i've been going out, working and just then, i finished cleaning my room hehehe :D Im heaps happy with the way it is, feels so much cleaner and bigger and better ! My makeup table is heaps small too and usually when i go out and use makeup i just chuck it everywhere on the table and it gets heaps messy and just really over crowded and its the biggest pain to pack up the next day. So anyway, i've had this gaint makeup artist makeup box thingo for a while now that my bf got me and i havn't gotten around to use it since cause I just never really had the time to put my makeup in it. Anyway, i did today :D and my makeup table feels so much more cleaner and better and im loving it :)

And even though i know nobody reads this, besides a few people (LOL)i write these just for the purpose of myself reading back and looking back on old posts and remincising on this that and what happened during this time blah blah haha and who knows, maybe ill still have this in 10years time and my children can read it lol

Well heres a few picccyssss of my lovely room :)





LOL i know i don't have much makeup, but i think i have enough to last me a whilee hehe

LOL beforeee and after photo omgawd D;


There's no really other way to say this but, I'm loving David more and more each and everyday. Seeing him each day, 6 days a week, just brings the brightest smile upon my face and starts each day anew and the days when i don't see him, time just seems to fly so god damn slow and even though thats one day a week that i don't get to see him, it still feels like forever and still makes me wanna see him, even though I've seen him so much already.

No doubt, I've never felt this kind of love before. To be honest, before i met David, I had really only been in love once and that was over a year ago to my first love. After getting my heart broken, i never really looked forward to relationships, i never was really serious to any of the guys i dated, and even though they were no doubt extraordinary guys, i always seemed to looked beyond everything they would offer me, mainly because i was still so stuck in love with him.

But all this changed when i met David. David is by far the most loving, caring boyfriend any girl could ever ask for and sometimes i just can't help but to wonder why he even chooses to stick around putting up with me. I can't thank him enough for how much love he has to offer, because each time we fuss and fight, we get stronger and stronger and that's all because of him and his strength to keep himself together in order for me to keep myself together, even though I'm constantly bashing walls and throwing phones. I really don't know where or who or what i'd be without him.

He always goes to high extents in order to fix us and make me happy. Just like the time we had a fight and he stole his sisters car to get to me and today how we had a fight the other day and even though i was in the wrong, he went and bought me this Tony Bianco bag that i wanted hehe just to make me happy :$ No matter what or how bad i treat him, he always still believes that i deserve to get all the bags, shoes, clothes and things i want because by the end of the day, all he wants is too see me happy.

Even though he can be really dry at times, especially when he laughs at his own lame stupid jokes that nobody seems to find funny but himself, when he constantly farts in my face and gets my attention just so he can laugh at my reaction, when he pretends to kiss me or tell me a secret, and when i move forward too apparently hear the secret or receive the kiss he really burps in my face or ears and full laughs out looud crazy haha whatta loser, when he comes up with really stupid scenarios that usually are dirty and incests based on me and my little brothers and last but not least when he goes on my laptop when I'm busy doing something and reads my chat logs and acts all innocent when i come back ( ITS CALLED LAST RECENT ITEMS LOSER HAHAHAHA)

Anyway above all, i love him cause he trusts me to driveee from bankstown back home even though im not on my L's harharhar :)LOVE YOU GOOGLEY BEAR, I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU TOMMROWWSSSSS WHEN WE GOOO TO THE BEACHSKIEZZZ (L)