“Inseparable ♥ ”

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david says (9:11 PM):
*cant wait til we have kids hun
*i wana play with them all day
*teach them new things
Nicole (hw) says (9:11 PM):
*ahahhaa
*awwwwwwwwwwwwwww
*how cutee
*thats so cutee
Nicole (hw) says (9:12 PM):
*how much do you love me babe ?
david says (9:13 PM):
*enough to see my whole future in your eyes

Awwwwwww well isnt my boyfriend the most beautiful bundle of love and joyyy, im so lucky to have himmmm, tear :') Well it's nearly our 5 months in like 2 weeks hehe :$ I still can't belive its gonna be 5 months, i mean its felt like forever but then at the same time it's felt like time as flown by so fast. I'm so glad that for the first time I'm actually so confident in loving someone, which by, without any hesitate gives me all rights and strength not to be afraid too look into the future and plan my life ahead with him and without having any little doubt whatsoever in my mind his just another guy that was meant to walk into my life, teach me a lesson, then leave.

I've been in love many many times, and yes love is a big word, but i'd like to say that david is my one and only first true love. There's a difference between loving someone, not knowing where and how things are gonna turn out and truely loving someone knowing your pretty much stuck with them no matter how much you fuss and fight and knowing this is the person your gonna spend the rest of your life with.

David really is one in a million and every little thing about him makes me fall in love over and over againnnn ! <3 Even though he can be so god damn embrassing at times, i still love himm ! He hasn't only changed my perspectives on love, but my perspective on life overall and even myself relection.

I'm a more mature and better person when im with him and one example of this would be how he changed my views on drinking and partying. Because of him, i've matured out of the binge drinking and have learnt to drink responsibily and just made me see how silly and attention seeking girls look when their all drunk, like wth :L get a hold of yourself ! your a girl, your suppose to look preety and elegant, not stumbling around vommitting everywhere ! Another ting would be how he always makes me feel beautiful even at the lowest times when i feel like total shit. I know im not some top notch hot super model and ofc its is normal for most girls to be very self concious of their looks but david takes all that away and makes me feel like the most beauitfull girl aliveee. He embraces everything about me, my long legs, skinny body, long hair, preety hands and nails and my dopey eyes (hahahaha), my rainbow eyes when i smileee ^__^ and in addition tells me straight out how he knows i look preety with makeup and fake lashes on, but he thinks me without makeup and fake lashes im more beautiful; because the lashes usually cover my eyes and just overall he loves my natural face :$ which has made me feel more comfortable with myself and has helped me not to reply on makeup so much.

Furthermore, i used to get so worked up by hater comments calling me sluttt or whatever, but now i just dont care anymore. Cause thats my past and ive changed. Im happy with david now and i know im a good person. So too whoever posted that on my tagboard calling me a slutt, middle finger up, haters keep on hating, cause you'll never bring me down :) and for all those reasons, i thank him for that :)

I love davidddd cause he makes me express my inner softcock-ness and makes me say cheesyyy things hehee :') and for anybody out there who has ever doubted us? suck dicks bitch, cause we're still growing strong ... see you at our wedding in 5 years time hawhawhaw :)



Okay so things havn't been quiet good lately between david and i must admit i havn't been the best girlfriend imagined. Though, as a big turn around, making up for the past few days of constant argueing, today we decided to have a nice night out at east hills park sitting on a mat and fishing hehe :) It was a preety cute scene i guess, seeing as we only had one rod cause my other 2 stuffed up. Just him sitting behind me hugging me as we both held onto the fishing rod and talking about random stuff hee :$

It's weird how in a way, we're very similiar but at the same time we're some what really different.

I know straight up I'm not the perfect girlfriend and I'm really hard to handle. It's abit cliche with girls who describe themselves as "im imaptient, im jealous, im insecure" blah blah, not that i don't fall under those categories, but i think one thing that makes me so different from any other girl is my anger management issues. I'm a bitch and i know it, never once did i ever doubt that. I scream, i cry, i punch walls, i punch cars, i throw things at my walls, i throw phones and break them, i go key board warrior, i bash the poor guy up and i just preey much go nuts and demolish everything that gets in my way, LITERALLY. But because of those reasons i think in a way it's braught david and i closer to eachother because he has recognised those flaws and accepted them and learnt to deal with them for the past 8 months, as a bestfriend and as a boyfriend. But the again, it wasn't a problem that randomly aroused during the relationship we had, it was something that was there since day 1 and it was something he knew he had to accept and endure if he was going to be with me. And to be honest, i think his handled it preety well. I mean most guys would have left after getting given a million brusies from getting punched and bitten, billions of cut and scratch marks from my super sharp nails and then thousand beatings in the balls and just the overboard of physical abuse he gets from me.

David and i have been for quite a while now and his the first guy ive ever loved this much, honest truth :) Besides all the days we are fighting, the good days are just super over the moon. But one thing that got to me last night was when we had a arguement (and tbh i dont even remember about what) but like per usual i was a stubborn bitch and wanted him to chase after me and when he does i push him away. The point is, i said a few things i should have not said, which lead us to not talking and in that time i randomly decided to go to his blog. And thinking i was just gonna read old blogs he wrote for me ages ago, i found two recent ones, from the day before and the current day. He blogged about how we fight and how it makes him cry and sad and depressed. This totally woke me up, it was like somebody punched me in the balls 38028092801 times. And reading this made me sad, cause i was so unaware of his feelings and i always thought about myself in our situations.

Well i consultated with a good friend and he had a mad d&m with me about my actions and how i was wrong not only on this occassion, but many in the past aswell. He said that i take david for granted which if i keep continuing on with the things i do, one day he'll eventually give up and leave. This really opened my eyes and made me realise how true it is. Each time me and david fight i never see things from his point of view, cause everything is always about me me me and im always right, even when im clearly not.

Look hunny i know your reading and the whole point of this was to tell you how much i love you :) You have the most beautiful heart and I do know now that I can't afford to loose that <3 We're different from other people you know that hun ? We're different cause we can fuss and fight soooo much and i mean so god damn much, but we'll never be unseparable :) We can have so less trust in eachother with the opposite sex, but by the end of the day we'd both know deep down neither of us would ever cheat or do eachother wrong hehe i love you googley bear, i hope your smiling :$ <3